Unfortunately, some people think that merely disagreeing with "gay marriage" is being hateful and "homophobic". I strongly disagree. I believe that it is loving to oppose "gay marriage" and abortion. Why? Because both things are evil and are gravely sinful. Therefore by opposing these things, I am opposing grave sin which can send people to Hell. I am only doing these things because I am concerned for society and for people's souls. I do not want to see anyone go to Hell. I am NOT going to condemn ANYONE to Hell, not even my worst enemy. However, I will judge actions and I will judge beliefs. There is a difference between judging actions/beliefs and judging people's souls. I am not God, therefore I cannot judge the state of someone's soul. Only God can do that.
But anyway, if I have ever come across as hateful to people in my campaigning against these things then I want to apologize for coming across as hateful even though I assure you that I did not intend to come across as hateful and I was not being hateful. I believe that being hateful is gravely sinful and therefore I would never want to be hateful.
But anyway, I think that as time goes on, there is going to be more and more social and peer pressure for people to conform with politically correct views. I think that eventually a large part of society is going to agree with "gay marriage" and anyone who disagrees with it will be hated just as much as most people hate the Ku Klux Klan (the organization, not the people). Indeed I think it has already reached the point of that kind of hatred in at least some circles.
You know, I can understand why my campaigning against "gay marriage" upsets some people. I can especially understand if those people are attracted to the same sex. I am attracted to the same sex although I am chaste. I have never been with a woman and I never will be with a woman. I refuse to be unchaste. But I can understand why it upsets some people. I honestly think that people who suffer from same sex attraction honestly consider it to be a personal attack when I can assure you that it is not. So if you think that I am personally attacking you or anyone else then please try to see things from my point of view. I promise you that I am not attacking anyone at all. I love all people and I want everyone to go to Heaven and that is one reason why I campaign against "gay marriage".
So anyway, for those of you who are for "gay marriage" I would just ask that you keep an open mind and try to see things from the point of view of those of us who oppose it. Yes, there are some people who are opposed to "gay marriage" who are hateful. However, I would say that the vast majority of people who oppose "gay marriage" are not being hateful at all. I think that the vast majority of people who oppose it do so because they see how it could have a devastating effect on society, on the family unit, and on people's souls.
Anyway, moving on to another subject. I am sick once again. I think I have come down with bronchitis. This has got to be the 5th to 7th time I have had it this year. I am very tired of having bronchitis and therefore I have decided that I am definitely going to quit smoking. I decided the same thing last week too but I failed after 2 days. Well, now I have some nicotine patches and so hopefully I will be more successful in quitting. May God give me the grace to quit.
In other news, Precious' allergies seem to be acting up a little bit lately. I think it is because of my smoking. That is yet another reason why I want to quit smoking. I don't want to make her sick and so starting tomorrow, I am not going to smoke anymore with the help of the nicotine patches, God willing.
This morning I went to Mass and before I went to Mass I went to Confession with Fr. Ray. After Confession he gave me the Sacrament of the Anointing of the Sick because of my breathing problems. I am so glad that he gave me this great sacrament. I am sure that it will give me the graces that I need to get better. I am probably going to go to a doctor here in a day or two just in case I need antibiotics and steroids again. I think I do. I have been having to use my breathing treatment machine (nebulizer) several times this week. I just used it earlier today. That's twice that I have used it today. I expect I'll have to use it again later too.
Well, that's all I have to say for now. May God bless everyone who reads my blog and may peace be with everyone. Amen.
I feel so bad for the people of Washington, Indiana. They got hit by a tornado yesterday afternoon/evening. I was watching the television when I saw them talking about a tornado that had been spotted on the ground and was headed right for Washington. Well, I instantly panicked because I have a best friend who lives in Washington. I immediately began praying and crying out to God and I begged Him to spare my friend's life. God answered my prayers. My best friend and his parents are fine. Unfortunately there are several people, if not many people, who lost homes and property in the tornado. I feel very badly for them. What a horrible cross that they must bear.
You know, when I was 7 years old, a tornado hit my town in 1990. I still remember seeing the damage it caused afterwards. It was much like the damage you see from other tornadoes on television. Nevertheless, it shook me to the core. I have been terrified of tornadoes and severe weather ever since. I try to remain calm but when they start talking about really bad weather and stuff like they did yesterday, I get nervous. If a simple Tornado Watch is issued and we're only under a Slight Risk of severe weather then I am concerned but not too concerned. However, if its a moderate risk or high risk for severe weather like it was yesterday, then I get very concerned.
Well, I don't know what else to say. I just wanted to get my thoughts out in my journal. It helps me to cope with how I am feeling. I am still in a state of shock that Washington got hit by a tornado. And yes, I am speaking of Washington Indiana and not Washington Illinois. Washington Illinois also got hit by a tornado but so did Washington Indiana.
Its odd, you know. I am in a state of shock that it happened even though I knew that it could happen. Its weird when things like this happen. You know that something like this could easily happen but yet it still shocks you when it does happen. Its kind of like having a death in the family of someone who has been ill for a very long time. You know that they are very sick and that they could die at any time and you know they are getting closer and closer to death and you may even know a day or two ahead of time that they are going to die imminently but yet it still shocks you to the core when it happens. At leas that's the way it happens with me. I'm not sure about everyone else but that's what happens to me. Maybe its just the way my brain is hardwired or maybe its just normal. After all, my brain is definitely not normal since I have several mental illnesses.
You know, I think one reason why such waste happens is because we live in a sue-happy culture. In other words, people are far too fast to file a lawsuit whenever something goes wrong. That is sad. Therefore it is no wonder that stores and such are afraid to give away their food that is nearing its expiration date. They are afraid that it might somehow get contaminated or something and someone will get sick and then they will have a lawsuit. So yeah, I don't blame them for being afraid of the lawsuits.
So anyway, since the lawsuit things is so "popular" in our culture, I think something needs to be done about it. What could be done about it, I have no idea. I haven't brainstormed the issue or anything but I'd welcome comments with suggestions as to what might be feasibly done.
I just think it is really sad that there is so much good that could be done in various businesses and such if it weren't for companies and such being afraid of someone filing a lawsuit against them. I understand why people file lawsuits and such but sometimes I think people just are not merciful enough. We all need to be more loving and forgiving towards each other. Sure, sometimes a lawsuit is necessary but I think many times it is not.
Another thing that has been bothering me lately is the fact that I have bronchitis on top of my chronic asthma. It has been causing me a lot of trouble with breathing. The fact that I smoke cigarettes does not help either but I have tried my best to cut down on them so that way it has the least effect on my breathing possible. I intend to quit smoking once I am finished with this pack but I cannot be certain that I will quit. I definitely do want to quit though.
Well, I think that is all I have to say for now. I hope that all who read my journal will be blessed by God.
For example, right now the sun is rising. The horizon is a beautiful light orange and pinkish color. Its like a pastel color. God has blessed us by giving us this beautiful sunset to admire so that we can appreciate and thank Him for His beautiful creation.
If you are not homeless then you have been blessed by God with a home or a place to live. If you have food to eat then God has blessed you with His Providential care by providing for your nutritional needs. If you have clean water to drink then God has blessed you with something to drink so you can stay hydrated. If you have electricity then God has blessed you with a means of operating all of your electrical devices such as your television or your computer. If you have cable television to watch then God has blessed you with a means of education, information, and entertainment. If you have an automobile that works then God has blessed you with a means of transportation. If you have money in your pocket or wallet then God has blessed you with the means to purchase things you need or want. If you have a roof over your head then God has blessed you with shelter. If you live in a country with freedom then God has blessed you by placing you in a nation where you are free to practice your freedom of religion by thanking Him for the freedom He has blessed you with. If you live in nation that is at peace, or at least not at war, then God has blessed you with a place of security and at least relative peace. If the sun is shining outside then God has blessed you with a sunny day which you should thank Him for. If your weather is cloudy then God has blessed you with a day that is good for napping or at least He has blessed you with relief from the sun shining in your eyes. If the weather outside is precipitous such as rain or snow then God has blessed you by providing the earth with water so that plants and crops can grow which will help you to have food to eat.
So yeah, that's a medium sized list of blessings which everyone has at least one generally. You should thank God for these blessings. Always be thankful to Him. It is your duty. There are many many other blessings which you probably have that you can thank Him for.
If you are thinking of those who do not have some of the blessings listed above then pray for these people that God would help them and grant them these blessings. Or at least pray that God would give them the grace to persevere in serious circumstances. You can also do something practical such as donating to the Red Cross, Catholic Charities, or some other organization so that you can help the less fortunate in a practical way. You can also help them by donating to your local food bank, putting some money in the Salvation Army's donation things this season, or by signing a petition online for something that would help them.
Remember to always act in accordance with God's will though. Unfortunately there are some "charities" out there such as Planned Parenthood that are doing Satan's work. Do not donate to them or help them in any way. They are not helping people most of the time. Most of the time they are hurting people by encouraging them or causing them to commit grave sins.
So anyway, I am sure that you have at least 10 blessings that you can thank God for every day. Most people here in the United States at least have many more blessings than that which they can thank God for. And again, think of the less fortunate and help them out in some way in accordance with God's will.
May you all have a great day and may God bless you all.
In other news, I now also have an eye problem. Thursday evening I started feeling like my eyes were really dry and irritated. Friday morning it happened again and I looked at my left eye in the mirror. There were a bunch of tiny blood vessels that were red in a one part of my eye. I called the eye doctor and they got me in immediately. The eye doctor told me it is probably eye allergies and he put me on a moisturizing eye drop and an allergy eye drop for one week. He told me to come back in 1 week for a followup. He said that if my eyes are not better by that time then that means I have sclaritis or possibly episclaritis. I can't remember which one he said. He said I would then have to be on a steroid eye drop to calm it down. Hopefully my eyes will be much better by then.
I woke up this morning feeling rather stiff and then it seemed as though a fibro flare kicked in and so I took my pain medicine. I also took my other medicine as well. I have been trying to take all of my medicine as usual except I did not take my bedtime medicine last night. I am now feeling better from the fibro flare.
Well, I think that's all I had to say for now. I wanted to update everyone who reads my journal on my health.
Have a good day everyone and God bless.
: a person who strongly and unfairly dislikes other people, ideas, etc. : a bigoted person; especially : a person who hates or refuses to accept the members of a particular group (such as a racial or religious group)
Catholics do not strongly and unfairly dislike other people. We do dislike other ideas but it is not unfairly. We also do not refuse to accept members of a particular group. Some people would say that we do refuse to accept members of other groups. They would say that our belief of not allowing "same-sex marriage" is not being accepting of homosexuals. The fact is that we are accepting of homosexuals despite the fact that we do not allow same-sex "marriage". We accept them, like everyone else, as human beings created in the image of God who have a high degree of dignity just like every other person on the planet. We accept people who are homosexuals just the same as we accept people who are heterosexuals. What we do not accept is unchaste behavior: homosexual sexual activities.. I want to make it clear, though, that unchaste activities even among heterosexuals is condemned by the Catholic Church. It doesn't matter what sexual orientation you are, we still condemn unchastity. Here is a quote from the Catechism of the Catholic Church to prove what I am saying:
2358 The number of men and women who have deep-seated homosexual tendencies is not negligible. This inclination, which is objectively disordered, constitutes for most of them a trial. They must be accepted with respect, compassion, and sensitivity. Every sign of unjust discrimination in their regard should be avoided. These persons are called to fulfill God's will in their lives and, if they are Christians, to unite to the sacrifice of the Lord's Cross the difficulties they may encounter from their condition.
As you can clearly see, even the Catechism of the Catholic Church which is an official book approved by the Vatican says that homosexuals must be accepted with respect, compassion, and sensitivity. So don't try to say that the Catholic Church is not welcoming to homosexuals.
Now, don't get me wrong, just because the Catechism of the Catholic Church, an official book of doctrine approved by the Vatican states that they must be accepted doesn't mean that they always will be. Regretfully there are some members of the Catholic Church who choose to be hateful and homophobic. Please note that when I use the word homophobic I do not mean it like LGBT activists do. It simply means someone that hates homosexuals.
Just because we forbid homosexual relationships, unchastity, and "marriage" does not mean that we hate homosexuals. In fact, it means quite the opposite. It means that we love them. Here is why: In order to get to Heaven after one dies, one must die in a state of grace which means that they must not have any unrepented (unconfessed) mortal sins on their souls. If a person dies in a state of mortal sin then they go immediately to Hell for eternity. Catholics consider homosexual sexual activities to be gravely sinful. If a person commits these sins with full consent of the will and full knowledge that it is gravely sinful then they commit a mortal sin. If they die without having sincerely repented then they will go to Hell if they are in a state of mortal sin.
And so, the reason why we forbid homosexual relationships, unchastity, and "marriage" is because they lead to gravely sinful activities which can send a person to Hell. Therefore we are not forbidding them from doing these things because we hate them. We don't hate them! We love them! We're doing this because we love them and we want to prevent them from going to Hell and that is why orthodox Catholics believe that a homosexual must not commit the gravely evil sin of unchastity. Of course one must also stay free of other mortal sins as well but the subject of this post is about homosexuality and that is why I focused on it.
God bless you all and have a nice day/night!
Because of this sinus infection, I have been having more fibro flares. They seem to be longer lasting as well. One of them was more severe than usual but not too bad. It definitely wasn't the worst one I have ever had in my life. I'd say that on a pain scale of 1-10 with 10 being the worst it was a 7.5. The worst aspect of this illness is that the fibro flares seem to hang on for a long while. Usually they go away within an hour of taking my pain medicine but lately the pain will diminish within an hour but some pain will stick with me for the rest of the day. That is normal even when I am not sick to some extent but the pain that is sticking with me is a little worse than usual. I'd rate it as a 4 on the pain scale when normally, if the all day pain exists at all, its a 2 or 3.
I have many people praying for me including my boyfriend, his mom, and several people on Catholic Answers Forums. There is also a Facebook group that I have friends in who are praying for me as well.
I received the Sacrament of the Anointing of the Sick this morning and I also went to Confession. I was so happy to receive these Sacraments. I am certain that God has given me and is giving me and will continue to give me the grace that I need to get through this illness.
When I went to the clinic this morning I was running a low grade fever of 99.3 degrees Fahrenheit. That makes me concerned that I might be contagious. Hopefully I am not. That is the only time that I know of that I was running a fever though. I have not been registering a fever on my thermometer here at home.
The nurse practitioner who took care of me at the Quick Care Clinic was my former nurse practitioner who was my primary physician. I love that she works there because she knows me really well and she is very friendly. She told me that if I get a lot worse then I should go to the ER. She also told me that if I am not better by Monday then I should call my current primary care physician for a follow up.
I have been having more asthma attacks than usual lately because of this sinus infection. That is why I felt the need to receive the Anointing of the Sick. Asthma attacks can potentially cause death in severe cases and so therefore there is a remote possibility of death which is what is required for the Anointing of the Sick.
May God bless you all and please keep me in your prayers.
- Current Mood: sick
1857 For a sin to be mortal, three conditions must together be met: "Mortal sin is sin whose object is grave matter and which is also committed with full knowledge and deliberate consent."131
1858 Grave matter is specified by the Ten Commandments, corresponding to the answer of Jesus to the rich young man: "Do not kill, Do not commit adultery, Do not steal, Do not bear false witness, Do not defraud, Honor your father and your mother."132 The gravity of sins is more or less great: murder is graver than theft. One must also take into account who is wronged: violence against parents is in itself graver than violence against a stranger.
1859 Mortal sin requires full knowledge and complete consent. It presupposes knowledge of the sinful character of the act, of its opposition to God's law. It also implies a consent sufficiently deliberate to be a personal choice. Feigned ignorance and hardness of heart133 do not diminish, but rather increase, the voluntary character of a sin.
1860 Unintentional ignorance can diminish or even remove the imputability of a grave offense. But no one is deemed to be ignorant of the principles of the moral law, which are written in the conscience of every man. The promptings of feelings and passions can also diminish the voluntary and free character of the offense, as can external pressures or pathological disorders. Sin committed through malice, by deliberate choice of evil, is the gravest.
The underlined part is my emphasis. I am certain that a mental illness qualifies as a pathological disorder or at least promptings of feelings and passions. As you can see, they can diminish the voluntary and free character of the offense or sin. So yeah, I knew the basics but Fr. Ray helped me to understand it better. I am so thankful that I now understand this issue better.
So, to sum it up, because of my mental illnesses my culpability is usually reduced and most of the time I cannot commit a mortal sin although it is possible for me to do so if my mental illnesses are not interfering in my life or if I somehow do have complete consent of the will and full knowledge of the sin being grave matter. However, I usually do not have complete consent of the will because of the impulsivity aspect of Borderline Personality Disorder which is a huge feature of my life.